..kP..

it was late. but dinner tym is oways fun wif d gang.

KP was where we had our dinner, nice environment 4 bothin studyin & gatherin. nv tot tat i would c him again. he was walkin up e stairs. turning back talkin 2 his friends, he saw me.

i tried lookin away, but i wasnt fast enuff. i smile back when he said hi.

our seats were close. thinkin of him wif his friends, me wif mine, i felt a sudden pain appearin at my chest n it flowed up my throat. i feel choked, wif tears.

wad can i do? i oways noe wad 2 tell ppl but nv knew 2 do it myself.

'runnin away doesn solve e prob'

when can i understand dis sentence myself? i oways tot tat i would haf e courage 2 walk up 2 him e nex tym i c him.
but i didn. i was scared.

he was laffin wif another gal.


went hm alone. as if tat wasn bad enuff.
he & her came 2gether. he said hi again but i pretend 2 look away n avoid al eye contacts possible.

he'l nv realise.


[hope dis wun happen again]